I've recently come to realise that my father is toxic. All my life he's pushed me to do better, never told me he's proud of me, minimised my feelings of confusion and anxiety, uses the silent treatment out of proportion ( like 2 weeks of not talking to me if I disagree with him), he uses criticism all the time, gaslights me into agreeing and saying yes to things, shows no interest in what I'm doing or learning, ... you get the jist. I'm 21 years old and quit my job after having a burn out and because it was monotonous and underpaying. I have been diagnosed with anxiety and depression, adhd, a nightmare disorder and I am hsp. Now I think that all those diagnoses could be symptoms of cptsd. I have 2 choices, stay at home where the money is, where the food is and where I will feel anxious 24/7...but fairly safe and surviving. Or I cut out my father from my life, move to a small appt in the city and work a shitty job to make ends meet, until I can pay for a degree and hopefully progress in life. This sounds like the murder of the father by Freud. But it's scary to me. I have no support system except for my mom, sister and therapist. I have little money and am already struggling with my mental health after all these years of having a toxic father. It's really scary because I'm an hsp and something small can be overwhelming. Do I stay at home and survive with this known state of anxiety and walking on eggshells. Or do I take the biggest leap of my life, with the probabillity that it will become way too much to handle ( because I'm all alone)...ending in depression etc.