I have no idea where to start this but im so. fucking. tired. of trying to workout the fucking manipulation that is my parents in my head every night. They get drunk every weekend only to fight like drunk retards at night and pretend nothing happened the next day. This same fucking formula has repeated itself week after week for as long as I can remember.

My dad blames all his fucking shortcomings as a father on his family behind our backs, even though he says again and again "its easier to blame everyone but yourself." What the fuck am I supposed to make of this? Every chance he gets he's talking shit about someone and making excuses for himself.

There is way more to this and I didn't write this with a clear head, but HOLY FUCKING SHIT. I so fucking tired of this shit being the reason I have countless sleepless nights. I really really wish I didn't have to be stuck in this shithole like this