I had a fairly challenging holiday today. As the others went to sleep and I sat alone reflecting on what was probably the hardest of my 34 years of life, I started to become lost in fear, self pity, and immense anxiety about a murky future. And then, I thought of Tori and how her music makes me feel. I knew right then what I had to do, sat down, put on my headphones, and queued her up. As expected, the anxiety and distress began to melt away.

Something about her voice lets me know that she "knows." She is so uniquely capable of capturing all of the many wild emotions that make up our lives, often within a single, dynamic song. She talks about the good and the bad, the euphoric and the disheartening. I'm forever thankful for her, and no matter what, I always return to the sonic spaces she creates that seem to take on lives of their own, often melding into mine.

Happy holidays everyone, and especially to anyone who might be feeling depressed and alone, or going through a dark time in their personal lives. Just remember, you aren't alone, even though it might feel that way.

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PS - this is what I was listening to as I wrote this. :*