I’ve had my tinnitus for 2 years now and made peace with it, it was always there in the background but I got used to it, only earring it when I concentrate on it. Today at 5am he woke me up, it was as loud as the first time I ear it. Thought to myself it will go away bc sometimes it happens and in 5mins it’s over. But it’s still here, and I can’t breath. I feel like it’s going to stay again but this time much louder. I’ve been checked last year and doctors don’t know what it is, I don’t listen to loud music, go to places were loud music is played, I don’t wear earplugs while sleeping ect..

To think that I’ll have to go through the first year of tinnitus all other again makes me want to throw up

How the fuck am I supposed to survived this again