Im 24 years old and started sexual fling with this 46 year old woman I met on tinder4 to 5 months ago and things were going okay but I noticed from the beginning that something was off but I just couldn't put my finger on it. I want to clarify I am not in love with this woman we are not in a relationship its mostly just sexual and spending time together. When we first met she came off strong. I must add I am also bipolar and met this woman while I was having a maniac episode. When I'm manic I make impulsive decisions and don't think about them until later. I also seem to attract very manipulative individuals.

Anyway, lots of flattery, compliments, trying to make me feel special, and saying she had never met anyone like me. A few weeks in she said she loved me which I disagree with, she idealizing me imo the version of me she loves is the one she created in her head. She talks about me like I'm this special unicorn and brags to her friends about me and various men. I haven't met any of these people.

When I told her I didn't love her back she was taken back by it and said everyone loves me you kinda hurt my ego when you said that and since then she always says you don't love me now but you will eventually. Keep in mindShe told me during our first week talking that she ghosts people habitually. I never forgot this conversation.

So she ended up bringing this back up and said she didn't want to hurt me because she's hurt alot of people in the past. I told her that would never happen because she told me she ghosts people all the time so logically I'm thinking what makes me so special eventually you'll do the same to me. This annoyed her she said she didn't like that I was putting up “barriers” and that I could have a beautiful experience with a older woman that I could tell people about or I could fuck it up. Which was very odd to me. I asked her what she meant and she changed the conversation to something else.

All of her stories are extremely exaggerated and make her seem amazing and special like she's a hero or chosen one. Or she's always a victim of being sexually harrassed by men. For example she told me when she was 21 she had a friend who liked to get gangbanged by random dudes. She claims she never joined (don't believe this at all 🤣) but used to act as her friends body guard. Long story short while her friend was in the bedroom with 6 guys she was attacked and almost SA by 3 guys who were also there. They beat up the guy who owned the house while he was trying to defend her and she jumped in and beat all 3 of these violent criminal dudes up by herself.

She said she dated a guy who lived in cabin in the mountains he was built like terry crews and had telekinesis and could hop in and out of her dreams. She told me about a particular dream ill get to later on.

When she was 15-16 she was best friends with a guy who sold drugs for a big drug dealer. This drug dealer was infatuated by her and pressured her friend into bring her along one day. Someone she convinced this drug kingpin to increase her friends supply and gave him a lecture about the way he ran his drug business. The guy was so moved by this teens advice that he listened to her and they dated for a few months and that he was one of her first sexual experiences even though she told me she didn't start having sex until she 19-20. But afterwards told me her first sexual experience was with her childhood friend they had anal sex when they were 14.

Everytime she talks about other men they're either hitting on her or being perverts. Or they're worshipping her like a goddess. Some random group of men always come to her rescue at the right time. I think she likes the attention she gets from these men and is trying to make me jealous and gets annoyed when I'm not. She always remarks on how I don't seem like I care.

She also doesn't like women very much but likes to be with them sexually. She talks about women the same way your womanizing uncle with 12 kids talks about women. She said she sees them as sexual play things especially when she's with her male partner. She likes to watch her partner have rough degrading sex with these women. And from what she has told me but doesn't want to admit out of her own mouth she treats these women like shit. Apparently they all felt like they had to walk on egg shells around her.

She encourages me to talk to other women which I do anyway but one time she said she wanted to take a break because she didn't want to hold me back from experiencing life. Seems like she has a very high sense of self importance.

I told her everything was fine but she insisted so I said okay and agreed. I stuck with our agreement and days later she messaged me and asked if she could come off punishment. I told her she put herself on punishment and I only agreed because she kept pressing the issue. The women she targets seem to have low self-esteem and self worth. The men who want to date her are providing for her financial apparently they have all this money and status but for some reason I'm so special. I'm a 25 year old with debt and no car because it got stolen a few months ago.

She lies alot and doesn't remember the details of her stories when she tells them to me again. I don't say anything I just quietly listen and try to catch the changes in the stories. She asked me two very odd questions. She asked me if I ever thought she lied to me and she asked me what I thought about gaslighting. She asks me continuously if I like her and why do I like her. She constantly fishes for compliments and praise. She wants to be admirednad sees herself above others. She talks bad about her exes and how she never knew what she saw in these people now that she's healed but she's still on contact with these individuals and talks to them regularly.

She offers up information without me asking for it and when she brings up the men in her life she makes sure to tell me they have nothing sexual going on even though I never asked.

She said she doesn't get jealous and likes to let people do whatever they want. Basically she'creating a environment where the people she surrounds herself with don't have to hold one another accountable for the things they do. For example she told me story of where she caught her baby daddy who was her bf at the time having sex with her brothers gf it turned her on and then they had sex multiple times and she tried to talk him into sleeping with her brothers gf again but he refused. She also never told her brother this information.

When she was in high school she raised enough money to for scholarships to send her entire school to college. Keep in mind this is a high school in a very low income neighborhood.

She told me her husband died then she said they got divorced. Then she told me her son died. Then she told me she only had 2 children ever in her life. But if your son died that means you had 3 not 2. She also magically cured her lupus.

She'll send random texts saying she's scared or she's sad but doesn't follow up with an explanation when I ask why. Fishing for attention.

She also has a porn addiction that she tried to blame me for apparently she didn't start watching porn until we started talking. But she sends me porn regularly. And the porn she sends me is very BDSMish and you can tell she's been watching it for awhile. Alot of age play stuff and she said she always puts herself in the position of the man when she watches. I just recently found out she watches humans have sex with animals. I know people have their kinks and fetishes but this is weird asf.

Now you may ask if you're so aware of these things why did you continue dealing with this woman? I was horny, drunk, my gf just broke up with me and I saw an opportunity to have sex with a attractive woman who was obviously way more sexaully experienced than me and I enjoyed it but I regret my decision. You can have the same amount of sexual fun with someone who is mentally healthy. But I also realize I have to deal with my own mental problems to stop myself from attracting these type of people. This woman does not love me the same way she didn't love any of her previous partners. The only reason why she's infatuated with me is because I'm not hooked on her and the moment that happens I'll be no different than the others. She wants me to fall in love with her I know she does because she brings it up all the time and constantly mentions how everyone loves her so why don't I? The most alarming thing she said was that she hated me because she liked me so much.

Sorry if this was long I just wanted to share this crazy story and yes it did happen. I have since deleted tinder lol. Lots of therapy to work on my issues uand getting back into society is upcoming.