My (18M) best friend (18 NB) is moving out of state for college. I'm heartbroken. They are like the only friend I have and I hate losing them. I also failed my exams so I'm being held back a year. I hated the idea of them moving away so I got drunk and a typed a bunch of good ol 'I miss you 😭😭😭' and stupidly added a 'I like you no I love you like love love??? I realised that because you were moving away' and 'I get why all of them were rizzed up by you' before blocking them. The next day one of my friends contacted me on discord and told me to unblock them. They are now hurt that I confessed and dipped like that. 'your so brave for saying this'. 'lets talk'. were something they added. Now I genuinely don't know what to do and what to say. I wish I could go back in time and smack myself. Our relationship is ruined. I'm hoping they reject me but still our relationship has changed thanks to my stupidity. I'm like a groom who got cold feet at the altar and decided to ditch the wedding rn.

TL;DR: Realised my best friend is moving away, told them I liked them even though I don't and tried to cut them off.