This was roughly 12 hours ago and I am still experiencing anxiety to the point where coffee is no longer necessary to keep me awake.

I've never been a social butterfly, I've been REALLY trying. As of late, I installed a couple dating apps to try and get myself some more "experience". I've never had casual sex before, and the partners I've been with in the past never really complained about my methods aside from too much teeth or not enough teeth.

I matched with a man roughly 2 miles from my community college. Took an Uber over to his apartment with the promise of anime and a hookup. The poor man took a sick day off his job for this moment.

I get to his place and sit on the bed. He puts some anime and we lay down. After an episode, we make out for a bit. Things get spicy and he got hard. He asks me to blow him.

I grew up pretty damn sheltered, and have zero idea how to properly go down on a man. I gave the most questionably bizarre blowjob that included huffs of cold air in the nice 40F room along with making weird fart noises on his cock. I felt his erection gradually die and shrivel up back into hiding. I did not know what was going on.

Now, this guy... he was fucking confused. He didn't question what I was doing until maybe 10 minutes in. His unforgettable expression of "what the fuck is this chick doing" was pretty evident. I asked him why he wasn't getting any harder. I understood at that moment what I was doing/not doing. Fuck.

I excused myself and decided to forego the fuckening. I'm damn sure he felt the same way after that altercation, as evident from the silence. I waited outside in the cold rain for an Uber home.

tldr; I met with a guy for casual sex and used my limited knowledge on the art of oral to make his erection go away.

Edit 1: one of my friends showed me this today and I nearly outed myself. ALSO I had an ex that dated a woman whose teeth all fell out due to a medical condition and he told me gummy blowjobs aren't that fun.