Just what the title says... I (32F) effed up just last night by finally losing my virginity. All my girl friends always spoke on how much they mostly regretted their first times, and now I get it. I was just SO sick of not getting any though. Most men I kept getting involved with would turn tail and hit the bricks anytime I'd mention still being a virgin.

So I thought to myself, repeatedly throughout this year, "why not just finally jump some damn bones at this point?? YOLO." Ugh. I found a guy on Hinge we'll call T(28M). Seemingly very sweet, VERY fucking cute, and we talk a while. We agree to meet up, see where things go. He comes to my place (I know, 1st meeting, wtf are we doing in 2023 having this occur at my home??) And we start watching a movie.

Things progress, we have a good time. Here arise the FU's. I made sure protection was available. My virgin ass had condoms, but the things expired. T ensures me he has one. He never put it on though, but I do have an IUD implant. I idiotically let him shoot up my club with his microkids. Next, I didn't even get to come. Fine, whatever. I was prepared for that as from solo sessions throughout life, I already knew I'd be a complex case for finishing with a partner. Especially a first time one. And finally, I get unmatched as soon as we exchange our post-coital pleasantries on Hinge once he arrived back home.

TLDR; Wanted to lose my v-card, was a horny lass and got that, plus an immediate ghosting and potentially, a bonus IUD-miracle-baby.

I feel like a massive idiot sandwich and I want to die. Feel free to make all the jokes in the comments. I could sure use the laughs.

Edit: Humongous thank you to the kind internet strangers who awarded me gold, platinum and other awards! 💛 And thank you everyone for your kind words! They've truly helped me feel more okay with myself today. I did not think this many people would give af about this post. Lol Also for those mentioning STI's and screenings, I'm absolutely going to see my gyno this week! Yes, the potential of having one or more is also on my FU list! I figured it went without saying... Finally for those that are ignorant of how women's bodies sometimes work, yes. A (previous) virgin with an IUD implant. Because I have the displeasure of having a RIDICULOUSLY horrific and irregular period that causes big time life interruptions, unless I have my IUD in. Gotta love Mother Nature. 😊