(Backstory) This girl and I (let’s call her E) were very close friends in middle school. I was E’s closest friend and she was mine. Neither of us really fit in with most of the other kids for various reasons but we got along really well. Eventually Highschool rolled around and we both managed to make some more/ reconnect with old friends and while we weren’t quite as close anymore we were still very close friends. Unfortunately at a certain point I realized I wanted to be more than friends and eventually worked up the courage to tell E that. We tried for awhile but it really just didn’t work and eventually we both agreed to just go back to being friends. That worked for awhile but part of being one of E’s closest friends meant hearing about her other relationships and the awkwardness of those conversations eventually forced me to distance myself. That combined with my personal issues in our senior year of highschool caused us to lose contact shortly after graduating. (Backstory done)

Now a couple months ago one of my best friends was getting married, I showed up to the wedding and to my surprise the first person I run into is E. I had never even thought about her being there even though I knew she was friends with my friend as well. Anyways we started talking at the wedding and the reception and we really hit it off, fell right back into our old groove like no time had passed at all. We exchanged numbers before we left and have kept in fairly regular contact since. Now this is great and all, except for the fact that I’ve realized I never really got over her. I’ve started thinking about her basically all the time. If our circumstances were different I’d just come out and tell her, unfortunately I’m a barely functional adult and she’s a single mom. As things are I know getting involved would be a bad idea for a variety of reasons. I can barely pay my own bills and hardly function on a day to day basis, she has no time for a relationship and has a kid to take care of. And that’s just the big reasons. On the other hand I know the more I talk to her the more attached I’m going to get, so logically know that distancing myself again is probably the smart thing to do. But I just can’t make myself do that, not only because of my feelings but because I really do enjoy being in contact again and she seems to as well.

Anyways TLDR went to my friends wedding and reconnected with my old crush who I’ve got a very complicated past with and now old feelings are getting stirred up and causing me lots of issues.