Don't ask me why I'm bothering. I know that CBT is intrinsically and inherently a scam and victim blaming is at the core of what it does. I know EDMR is out and out quackery. Acceptance and Commitment therapy was the one I wanted to explore this team. I simply wanted a coach to help me accept chronic disability in the interim, while I work on a commitment to get better. Someone to just help me stay on task and stay focused as I rehab my body from several injuries at once.

But I can't even get that I guess? I literally have no one to talk to anymore. Family are so sick and tired of hearing it, my friends have all basically cut me off.

I've filled out 4 forms on Psychology Today this week and can't even get a rejection email. The vast majority of therapists on the website only take cash now. So $150 an hour prices out what, 99% of patients? The other 1% that go thru insurance it will be highly controlled, you'll have homework assignments to complete so insurance will keep paying the therapist a pittance, and the insurance company will have their dirty filthy hands all over your deepest darkest thoughts to justify paying the therapist that $35 check.

Healthcare in this country is a fucking disgrace. I've spent tens of thousands outside of insurance because it covers almost nothing that works. It covers the things that don't work because they're cheap and typically so counter productive it keeps you unhealthy and in the system.