I have an appointment with my new behavioral therapist (I have anxiety and depression already) on Wednesday just to preface.

My cousin (30M) who lives on the same property as me (37F) has been sporadically sending me increasingly inappropriate and sexual texts over the course of 6 years. He acts "normal" in person. It came to a head after a family gathering on NYE he put my dog in my yard then proceeded to flood my phone with texts tell me he was outside, he really wanted to hang out, he was by my car and cold, and if I can let him inside? Then told me he almost send me a 🍆 pic, that he should've had sex with a family friend and to keep this all between us. Luckily I was asleep and my phone was dead so I saw this flood the next day. His sister and brother knew for a couple years and tried to handle it on their own and it would seem like it because time would pass between texts. Thursday I finally told his mom and dad, with my cousins. They all support me and are on my side of course but his mom took is hard and was processing it the whole time, no one knew what to do really going forward and it's all complicated by the fact that not only is he family but he basically lives next door. They are creating a plan to address it by having and intervention next Saturday to get him to check in voluntarily to a mental facility. My dad doesn't know because he can get irrationally violent if a situation like this were to come up and it just wouldn't make the situation better. My mom knows but she's in another state.

I'm stuck in limbo not knowing how to process my feelings not knowing which feelings are valid, questioning if im blowing my emotions out of proportion. Like I've been handling this calmly on the outside because I can't let myself feel something thst I'm not sure if I'm even valid in feeling and my cousin is still next door to me. I can't truly escape even being within his radius.

I took friday off work and Saturday which even though I explained my situation to my manager it was clear she was not happy. We have a generally good relationship but lately she's been really unsympathetic to mental health. I want to take time off work, mainly to get out of my house and property and go visit my mother for a week. Im scared of losing my job, I'm scared my boss won't understand, I'm scared that I'm asking for too much since it's not like I wasn't physically assaulted. But work has been so bad on its own that it's not even a sanctuary, some nefarious things in management and bullying people out of their jobs, going against disability laws to one of them. At the moment I don't even wanna be around anyone at work, or clients I don't even wanna be around any of my family members here or friends. I just want to be home alone to process this at my speed and find a safe space to let my feelings finally out.