I am not sure if this is the right subreddit to ask my question so if you know a better one please tell me.

I am 22 M started knowing about sex since i was about 12 you i watched my first porn video and had my first orgasm when i was 14 yo

ironically that first video was lesdom video (female spanking two other females) 💀💀 however after that i was more than excited to watch normal porn ( man with woman intercourse)

until before i was 16 i stumbled upon a femdom video and it turned me in a way i haven't experienced before and i got to know about femdom and got hooked up on it starting from this i point i kinda of got addicted to this typa porn and i couldn't get excited on normal porn like my penis would get hard on normal porn.

I've tried to quit femdom porn especially and porn at all several times but i failed. How ever i used to force myself to Masturbate to normal porn a lot and it's either i don't get the same pleasure i had with femdom porn or even sometimes i couldn't get my penis hard at all.

The thing is at first it started with verbal humiliation, spanking but it developed into more severe stuff like torture with whips and chastity, ballbusting , objectifying and even marking livestock ( like when they heat up a piece of metal with a name on it to mark livestock) and some other severe forms of femdom.

And it didn't stop there unfortunately even femdom porn started to be boring as well and i had to seek IRL experience but as you can expect it's some women tryna make money out of scamming and abusing horny submissive men.

And to be honest i never actually accepted myself and respected myself and even i hated myself because of this femdom addiction. And what made it a lot worse when i snapped to the reality that women are mostly submissive and how rare it is to find a truely dominant woman who does because she enjoys it. And on top of that the rejection of society to men like me especially my society since i live in egypt.

So should i seek therapy ? Will it even work? I mean can i ever get rid of this part of me? I even can't imagine myself setting in front od therapist whether it's a man or a woman and talk about how i enjoy humiliation.

Sorry for my bad English and sorry for being long