I am 32 year old married man that has children with tons of issues! I have anger issues but I’m not physical and I never get supper angry towards my kid. I feel useless but I’m the only one that works since my wife stays at home do to my nature of my job and lack of support for babysitting. I had a crappy childhood and trying my best to make sure my kid doesn’t have one but I feel like I’m failing. I get set off on some stupid stuff or with things I do have the right to be upset I tend to blow it up way out of proportion.

I feel stuck at my job that I don’t love but it pays the bills and if I change jobs I’ll end up making less and my wife has been out of the work force for 5 years. Plus we filed bankruptcy last year and feel I can’t move out of my current place anyways do to stupid choices made few years back. I have no family connections. I ain’t close to my father or mother nor siblings plus they are extremely dis functional.

My relationship with my wife has been strained due to lack of romance and sex along with my anger issues and her high anxiety issues.

I developed this weird hotwife fetish last year but I am totally against cheating and always fear my wife cheating and unfortunately accused her multiple times knowing deep inside she isn’t and no proof at all that she is. That it has messed with my head.

I feel angry and sad all the time but try to mask it with my goofiness.

We struggle financially so unable to even see a therapist at all!

I don’t know what to do or why I feel like this?