So just for quick clarification, the Ex in question was a Trans Masculine Guy.

I knew them a few years before he opened up about his identity, and it was around this time that we started dateing after I found him on Tinder. (Ironic that I go to tinder to match with someone I already know).

So we dated for around a good two months. And it was going very well. But at some point I had upset him or put him off in ways that to this day I still never got all the answers.

Normally if I did something that had upset someone I would immediately apologize or almost certainly find a way to make up for my mistake, but the thing is I was never told.

Him nor his friends ever told me that something was wrong, and he never made any sort of signal that anything was a miss. Even the last time I saw him he kissed me before I got in my car a drove away. But the next morning he text me asking to break up.

He said that for the last two weeks up untuil then, he had been feeling unsure about the relationship and that he had been thinking about breaking up. I tried to talk about it, try to have a heart to heart and sort things out. But he said that he didn't want to talk and that he had his mind made up.

I asked what was wrong and why he felt like splitting ways. He felt like I didn't veiw him as a guy, that we were moving to fast, and that I said some things that upset him and his friends. I was never told what was said, or what could have made him feel that way, but even so I always respected him as my boyfriend, and if he had asked for space I would have given it to him. But even so I never had much opportunity to get answers after that, because he soon started blocking me on every platform he possibly could.

For the next few days I was caught in a cycle of depression, witch I eventually learned to manage. But to this day if I'm reminded of him, or if I see him I'll still fall back into that state of loss and regret. I guess I'm upset that I never got the full answer, maybe I'm mad at myself for not making the relationship more comfortable. I know I couldn't fix that witch I didn't know was broken. But even though I still feel responsible for giving up and letting go to easily.

I don't know if i need therapy, or if I need something else to help cope. This stings more than any other break up I've ever had, and I'm reaching on 1 year now but I still can't let go. I just hope I can find some kindof advice.