I'm in my early thirties. Likely on the spectrum, but I have a job and a house and support a pet. I live alone. My friends dwindle each year. My ability to initiate intimacy is so bad that I have never had sex, let alone a relationship. I don't get necessary things done unless under external pressure. I let my house get messy before cleaning. I don't go out because I can't eat at most restaurants, my interests are niche, and I live someplace meant for families instead of losers. I hate being alive.

CBT either hasn't worked for me, or the therapists I saw didn't do it well. I saw a Freudian once, and they were of no help. I saw a psychiatrist for a bit and got some Lexapro, but it stopped working. Welbutrin gave me indigestion.

So, who do I see next?