I've (63f) been in love with him (70m) for 10 years. We were able to be together very often and kind of have a real relationship for 9 of those years. I've known from the beginning he would not leave his wife. I was ok with it since I was able to be with him so much.

About a year ago I had to move 6 hours away. Of course he couldn't come with me. So in that year I've gone back 4 times for a couple days. He can't get away overnight at all. So all interaction between us is up to me.

I'm done. I really want to have someone to vacation with, to have a true relationship with.

I haven't told him I'm seeing other men, but he knows I'm not happy. I have met a couple of single men, and had a few dates. It's ok, but I can't help but compare them to MM.

It just really sucks.