I'm not saying I have main character syndrome but I can actually see in first person perspective, it's like weird knowing you're able to interact with everybody so clearly but it's weirder being able to understand and make judgements on my own, it's like playing a game but you can actually die and I know once I die it'll go to the next person unless I'm still the next person I honestly can't tell but it occasionally drive me wild not knowing more about this. I know everybody says I'm a main character of My own story but I'm actually the main character of my story, of this story right here the world we're living in and I don't know how to feel about it or how to break it down.

Edit: To give some clarification, I have some oddities that most humans can't do I'm able to see the particles move around when I focus not like seeing every atom or anything but being able to see how they move around people from a distant, how everything moves around I can feel people emotions from a distance so I'm able to know the feelings of others slowly you can be someone random and I can feel your emotion, occasionally I do have vision but I never know the day it's going to happen but that's most people, so that's nothing too special, when I sleep I don't really have lucid dreams I never really had one before but I can always see myself above me and I can always end up seeing myself laying in bed, when I touch stuff I can feel the energy of new items which might affect the outcome of the next day as if I'm choosing the possibility unknowingly. I don't know if all NPCs can do this.

But the real problem is I don't even feel like this is a body I can control properly anymore, every movement I make is alright but feel like every time I walk I'm getting pushed out as if I'm about to start watching myself from above and it's not like dying or anything but more like just becoming like everyone else. Just thinking completely the same and never even questioning the most obvious of things it got to the point that when I close my eyes it feels like the next moment I'm going to go back on autopilot and I'm back to being forced to move around and let whatever happens, happen without any control from me.

And to make things clear I don't really have any narcissistic tendencies or any narcissistic problems, I don't honestly think of myself at all, I don't think I'm destined for anything super Grand but just a single person that's an odd one out. You can still just call it what you think but I've been going through this for years and I don't think anyone will really understand what's going on with me, my older sister and friends are the only ones who believe me, and I just wanted to see if there was anyone else who could help me understand what's going on with me. I honestly do thank you all for your opinions though and we'll try to get to you when I can to try to explain more of this problem since even it's hard for me to explain.