Hi everyone, hope this question is allowed.

I am an atheist, have been all my life. I have never felt a click with religion. My family wasn't very religious and while I did go to a Christian pre-school, I have little connection to any of it. I'm not one of those pretentious atheists who think they're better for not having faith. I personally think I am missing something in my life because of it.

I have taken religious philosophy courses, spoken with preists, and read the Bible and Koran, and nothing clicks. I feel bitter and nihilistic and cynical.

I want to try and get into religion but there is no feeling there. Has anyone else experienced this? Am I doing it wrong by trying to ostensibly push a square peg into a round hole?

I just feel lost, I don’t want to think of the world the way I do, but I can't see how else to see it.