First of all I’d just like to thank everyone. I have found much comfort in reading posts and comments on this page. I have my orchiectomy scheduled for the 28th. I feel like that is just so far away. I wanna get righty out of there. I’m in constant pain.

However I am scared. I’m 23 and I want kids (not quite yet I’m still in school and not in the field of work that I would like to be in to raise a family) and currently I’m not in the financial situation to be able to bank any sperm, due to the cost, and the fact that it would only be good for IVF. I don’t even know if I would want to put my partner through all of that or if she would want to go through that. So I’m taking the gamble that lefty will be all good to take over the production of sperm.

I am also very ready to get the next part started and making sure everything is localized. Still feel like I’m still so in the dark. I can sit here and say I most likely have TC, like prolly 99% but I still know nothing about it. I have no clue where my markers are. I know I have an elevated liver value and my urobilinogen levels are elevated too. But I figure this stuff out after I leave the doctors and look at my fucking patient portal app bullshit. I feel like waiting an additional 17 days definitely isn’t going to help if it something that is localized at this point.

Honestly this post is very much me venting, and I appreciate if you have any tips or any advice for what I have in my future. Thank you once again guys and KICK CANCER IN THE NUTS!