So basically me and my gf hung out last night and I got pretty drunk, went overboard with alcohol like usual. She was only mildly buzzed. She drinks far less often than I do, plus I'm also like very impulsive and have a tendency to overdo it.

But I got really cuddly and came onto her, I tend to get super intimate and affectionate when I'm drunk. This was just our first kiss and I feel so guilty that it was while I was more or less wasted.

And normally I'd never be so physical, like while sober I hate physical touch... I recoil or flinch or jerk away even to expected physical contact. But while drunk I'm super touchy and willing. I've been slowly getting better about it, I can at least only initially flinch away.

She also feels guilty, she feels like she took advantage of me. I told her beforehand and today that I would be and still am totally okay with missing and making out, we didn't really take things too far even. Did she actually take advantage of me? Like I have no idea how to explain to her that it's totally fine with me and I even enjoyed it, I just wish I could have been sober