Another day of not seeing value in anything

Another day of forming unhealthy and unsustainable relationships with other people

Another day of self-loathing

Another day of ever-increasingly meaningless work

Another day of not having any type of goal in mind

Another day of feeling like I'm hurting the people around me

Another day of losing interest in the things I once loved

Another day of rusting the skills I once had built up

Another day with a growing feeling of emptiness inside

Why is it like this? Why did I dig this hole for myself? Will I be able to ask someone to pull me out? Will the demons get me? All I know for certain is that my brain is a shitstorm right now. Thanks for reading the lament of my current state.