i made so many mistakes and my reputation is beyond repair. pretty much the entire school either hates me, finds me annoying, or makes fun of me in some way because of something i did in the past.

i wish i could just let go but im constantly reminded of my actions everywhere i go

if i could restart life there would be so much stuff i would do differently. i wouldnt have made fun of emily in 8th grade, i wouldnt have interrupted theology class so much, i wouldnt have made that speech on stupid technical topics stuff that nobody understands, i wouldnt have made a fool of myself on my crush by emailing her, i wouldnt have had an anxiety attack during dodgeball, i wouldnt have used my calculator so much, i wouldnt have tried to fuck around with linux during kahoot, i wouldnt have made everybody hate me...

i really want to switch to a new school and start fresh but i cant because my mom wouldnt let me