I'm curious to know why I feel this way, as I'm having some trouble understanding. So for some background I'm a dude and the friend I'm referring to a girl. We've been friends for probably like 2-3 months, are pretty good friends. I did ask her on a date, to which she accepted but was later canceled due to an understandable reason from her perspective. Interestingly enough she still says that the one thing is the only reason she didn't date me. So at this point we're simply friends, but she still teases me and purposefully does sexual shit in front of me.

The second part is our social personalities. I'm more introverted, less friends, but still able to be a social person if I'm around people, completely inexperienced relationship and sexual wise, and mostly stay home. She on the other hand is extroverted, commonly goes to parties, and is quite "experienced"

This led to the situation of me being in the friendzone, and led to her telling me about her sexual escapades. Anytime I hear her discussing it with me, or bringing it up, I feel slightly sick and kinda gross, as well as a slight sting.

Its weird, I want her to get a boyfriend. Not me specifically, but literally just get a boyfriend. Any ideas why its like this?