I ghosted a girl that I found online and it scar me for life. I'll never ghost any girl or anyone ever again.

Hi, I'm a normal teenage boy. Last Tuesday, at night, very boring. Me and my girlfriend had a argument and we both take our night with uneven feelings toward each other. I gotta admit that I wanna say sorry to her but there's ego and pride of me saying I shouldn't.

Then I remember there's a site which let you meet and chat random strangers, at first I thought to myself "It's just chatting, what could possibly go wrong..." then from chatting through video call search, seen lots of obnoxious things like pervs and whatever, then I went back to chat search, I mess around with some people I've encountered, then this one person stays. We chat, and she confirm that she's indeed a girl (Cause mostly there are men's in that site) so my bored ass were impressed, I propose that we take our conversation in Discord not in my any other social media cause my girlfriend might notice.

We chat for the whole night, it was like 2:00 AM when we started talking, she has her class at 7 so after a while I slept, over the course of 2 days I immediately get attached to her, we talk and make fun of each other, until I felt this comfort that I only felt to my girlfriend, I mean don't get me wrong I love my girlfriend a lot I can give my life off if it meant for her. Then the next day, I feel like something's off, I knew that it's a bad idea to just leave. Not to mention that I'm her first person who made her that happy, just to be clear here, we sended pictures of each other just to prove ourselves. She's unsocial person, shy, and a bit interesting. She loves and happy that we can talk all day long because no one approach her like I did.

Then I said to her that I'm just gonna do something, then leave and remove her from my friend's list on Discord. I immediately felt sad, thinking how open she is to me, the way she laughed and smile while we call in Discord. I know it'll be cheating if I continue it further more but I wanna tethered away because it's no longer just a chat.

I feel sick of myself for giving her false hope, I feel shit and stupid for even making it last, I feel awful. I feel like confessing this out is the only way to easing the burden. I can only imagine how sad she is thinking what did she do wrong for her to be just leave like that.

Sorry Chloe, but I love my girlfriend more.

If you're somehow reading this. I'm sorry.