So, I was just recently allowed to use Facebook and Messenger and now, I'm having fun playing and chatting with my friends. Now my dad, who is now banned from using Facebook(I'll tell you in a second why) is suspicious and asking me every second who I'm chatting with. The reason I'm not happy with him asking me is because I feel like he doesn't trust me. Like I know I shouldn't talk to strangers online that's why I don't do it. He knows I'm mature enough to know that. And then when I say it's just my friends, he'll ask again like what I said wasn't enough. I'M SO ANNOYED AND IRRITATED.

He's suspicious of ME? Why don't he look at his self and his actions that led him to being banned by my mother? I'll explain.

My dad used to cheat on my mom a lot(I still think he does to this day) and my mom would catch him every time. He always chats with these girls (which are not even pretty) and he would try to hide it from my mom, thinking she doesn't know. You see, my mom works a lot so she doesn't get enough time to rest so she barely checks the computers. BUT, my mom is very smart. She knows a LOT about tech and my dad doesn't. So, she catches him everytime and because of that, she's banned him from using Facebook. Today, I'm the one who monitors his use of Twitter which is his only social media account. His email is connected to my phone, and I can also open his account whenever I please.

You must be wondering why my mom didn't leave him. Well, two daughters are too much to handle for a busy mom working more than 8 hours a day so leaving him wouldn't be the smartest option.

So now, maybe you understand why I hate him right now. He acts so suspicious of me like I'm doing something wrong when I'm not! I even show him my chats just to shut him up. And sometimes, when me and my friends are having like really sensitive and personal topics, he tries to get a peek at our chats. I've complained about it to my mom and she already scolded him, but he still doesn't stop.

My dad has done a lot of shit to my sister too. When he and my sister are having an argument(most of them, I'm on her side), he tells her that maybe she's not his daughter and that she's a gold digger because she only respects my mom who has a job because he doesn't have one. In those times, I really want to slap him and hit him so hard he'll fall unconscious. Even if my sister is a total ass to me, she's still my sister and seeing her cry because of my father's mistakes gets me worked up but I can't talk back because I'll be the next one he hurts(physically). Yes, he hits us physically. My mom does too when she's really angry and stressed out. She slaps our arms, but I kinda still respect her because it is our fault. But my dad, I think I've lost all respect for him.

My sister doesn't even show any kind of respect for him. He even makes fun of her for loving kpop. I don't like kpop, but why does he have to make fun of something she likes? He doesn't have a job and he blames us for it. Like what? It was HIS fault that he lost his job and all his money abroad. He spent his credit cards until he had to file for bankruptcy. And we weren't even alive when that happened. That was HIS fault.

This is just a rant and hopefully I feel better in the morning but currently, I'd really like to hit him so hard. I still have a bit of love for him because he is still my dad and he was there for us for a lot of our growing up years but right now, I can't stand even to look at him.