A couple years ago, I started a relationship with a beautiful young woman. She was my polar opposite, popular, nice, clean, respected, so it was a bit of a shock when we started dating. Over these <almost> last two years, we made time for one another, to let each other know how we we're mentally and emotionally. When she moved to collage, I really wanted to keep going. I never thought it'd end the way it did.

Yesterday <Dec 14, 2019> I was called out again for cheating on my girlfriend, and like the 4 I am trying to keep my 9/10 girlfriend, I defended my case. Yesterday, after all the effort trying to clear my name and state my case of how I'm not a cheating jackass, she told me she didn't love me. She later told me that the rumors brought up many red flags and she just didn't see me as part of her future. She comes home from college sometime this week, and honestly, I'm not ready. When/if she goes through with this, I'll have to sit through Christmas, our <supposed to be> 2 year dating anniversary, and Valentine's Day.

I made this post as a rant and to get it off my chest, but I just feel lost, confused, numb to the whole thing. I'm not looking for sympathy, I'm just looking for a new way forward.

People of r/teenagers , what do I do?