Soo as flair states this is kinda serious but I could use a bit of advice on what to do.

Little backstory. I’m guy at school who gets made fun of and teased all the time. I transferred into this school in 5th grade but I have never fit into it. I’ve always been an outcast in my class. I live in a super small town (300 people) and go to a very small high school 45 minutes away. At home there’s nothing to really go out and do. There is one park in town and a bar. So this is what caused me to get into gaming from a young age.

Games and the friends I’ve made online are the best thing that’s happened in my life and it has been for the last 10 years of my life (currently 16).

But things changed last year when our WiFi provider decided to change how our payments were going to work. Instead of a set price they switched to having to pay per gigabyte used. That would mean our phone bill was gonna jump up almost $100 and my family can’t afford that. In my family my mom is the only one who works since my dad has had two heart attacks now. She gets payed around $10 an hour. And we barely make it by as it is. So we had to change providers to a far worse one. The WiFi went from being able to run a game with 20 or more people in a lobby to not even being able to hold a discord call.

That’s when my depression started to take a turn for the worse. And I lost what little sense of self worth that I had. Being a part of the gaming world made me feel like people needed me. And it helped me get away from my reality of constantly being bullied at school. Now I’m being forced to live through my hell everyday without anything to look forward to or enjoy. My one “friend” at school I just found out has been saying that I’ve been harassing her and done stuff like looked up her skirt.

I’m just starting to just hit so many road blocks with everything going on that I’m running out of ideas on what to do. I could just use some advice on what to do next. Thank you for listening to my experience