I know I’m only 18 and I “have my whole life ahead of me” but I don’t care one bit. My life just sucks. There’s nothing good at all about my life. I’m only going to community college because that’s what everyone says I have to do. I hate doing all this schoolwork because it bores me to death and I get distracted too quickly. I hate my job but I have to keep it cause I need money. I have no real life friends or a girlfriend to spend time with and I have no hobbies so I just sit at home watching YouTube or Netflix and just waste all my time away (I do go to the gym a few times a week but that’s not really a hobby). I live in a state where there’s nothing to do and I really want to move up to NY or somewhere but I can’t move by myself. I have no clue what I want to do with my life or what job I want or anything at all. I’m such a failure of a human being. I get too attached to girls I don’t know that well, then when I try to talk to them or ask them out they always reject me and I have no one to blend but myself because I’m a fucking idiot. I’m a waste of human life. I don’t deserve to live. I’m just a pointless waste of space that does nothing to contribute to this world. I know no ones gonna actually read this so I’m just wasting my time. Guess wasting time is the only thing I’m good at.