I cannot believe I'm 19. I've always been proud that most of my friends were my seniors and much older than me but now that I'm their age, I cannot believe it. Every morning when I go to college, I see atleast one little kid happily laughing or crying while going to school. It makes me incredibly sad realising that I'm an adult now. I was cut off from the Internet and outside world last year, and obviously I barely met any new people. I forgot that I was 18. But now, joining a uni and studying for something that's going to be my career later, feels so surreal. Sometimes the burden of uni gets to me and I feel very emotionally vulnerable and stressed. It's like everything matters now. Everything I do, everything I say and every thought leading to that word and action, everything matters now. Maybe my transition hasn't been smooth because of how I lived last year, but it feels so unreal. My friends are into new stuff and I'm not much interested in them so it's hard to hang out. I still feel like a friggin kid but everyone says that I'm older than my age(mentally, in this sense.) I had to change my birth year to register in sites and stuff but now I'm actually keeping my own year...I don't want to grow up...but I have to. Life's a bitch and so am I...

Edit : some mistyped words