I don’t really know if it’s even worth it to post this here but I wanna see just generally what others think. I hit puberty early, maybe around 11 and ever since I was maybe 16, I felt my libido decline. I get that that’s a thing and teenagers are known to be horny but man I just, I just am not ready to grow up man. I don’t wanna go to college in 3 months, I don’t wanna get a job, I don’t wanna have to face the fact that I’ll have responsibilities now. I ran into someone today that I used to know as a Freshman and he’s 21 now and I don’t want to be him, I don’t want to be loser after high school. And yeah I’m going to college, yeah I’ve got a supportive family, yeah I’m privileged, but man, is that all gonna be for nothing? Where’s my motivation going, am I gonna end up with a shitty biology degree with student loans and just fade away? People reminisce about high school, people say it was the “best years of their life”, that’s what my grandparents always told my dad. Does it have to be that way? Reminds me of what my dad told me in fifth grade after we had the sex talk at school, it was to “enjoy it”, enjoy I guess being horny? Ridiculous right? I never understood what he meant by that, but I think I get it now, I get now a lot of the things he told me when I was younger that at the time I wouldn’t really think about. Enjoy being stupid, being horny, being immature, because one day you’ll graduate high school and the crushing realization that you’re in the real world now will hit you.