So I was almost entering a relationship with someone I had strong feelings for but was ultimately ruined by my own anxiety and pressuring of the other person. We cut contact for around four months before I recently decided to reach out and reestablish some communication, however I am not where I want to be so I decided to do a spread for insight.

I decided to use the following spread:

1. The Path, where are you being called to
2. The Obstacle/Challenge, the thing that must be overcome
3. What will be learned? What will be learned from this time.
4. In what way will I need to be brave and go out of my comfort zone?
5. Where should I place my focus if I want to make this work?
6. What to keep silent, refrain, or show restraint with.

I drew the following cards with my analysis.

1. Page of Pentacles, I see this as striving for what I set out to do, kind of like putting effort into the dream which is to maybe get a second chance with this person and get a loving dynamic.

2. Nine of Swords, I see this as my own anxiety as my worst enemy. It needs to be conquered somehow.

3. The Devil. This could mean that my previous behavior was toxic and I need to be more aware of when I act pressuring or pushy.

4. Ten of Pentacles. This was tricky. Maybe its talking about putting on a happy outward look? Having faith?

5. Three of Cups. Focus on being a friend to this person, enjoy the time spent talking together and not worry about anxiety or it not working.

6. Nine of Pentacles. Another that doesn’t make sense to me. Maybe keep my feelings about the other person private from them?

Im at a loss here so any help would be appreciated!