So a card I have pulled for myself, one that I have really come to identify with is the Hanging Man. I have been occupying liminal space for a very long time.

Decided to change careers in 2018, so I went back to school. At the end of 2019, my wife and I split. Covid killed school for me and I just kinda waited for... idk the world to end? I had no idea what to do or where to go. I met a woman and fell hard in love. She encouraged me to go back to school, which I did, finishing my degree over the summer. In October, we started breaking up. The day before she kicked me out last month, I accepted a new job, my first in the field of mental health. For some reason, my background check has been hanging in the balance for the full month.

I just always feel like I'm waiting for some event to complete a cycle. Now I'm terribly grief stricken, unpacking abuse I've endured, and alone for the first time in a very long time. I'm getting tired of being the hanging man.

Does anyone know of something you can do when you feel like a is just stuck to you? Is there something I can do to promote my life advancing beyond the hanging? The practical steps I can take, I'm taking. I do feel like I need some metaphysical help on this one, so if y'all know of something, please share.