I pulled an 11-card cross with Mystical Manga. (Great deck for anime enthusiasts). This is my interpretation (I’m 30m heterosexual, single). I don’t do reverse cards, but am open to interpretation if you think I should flip one. 1. Correspondence: 2 of coins I’m Pisces through and through. I saw someone else pulling for a sex reading and (my heart goes out to you) I want to have that too, but am afraid of the consequences. 2. Situation: 9 of Wands If I ever meet a fitting woman, she’s likely to be a fire sign…I’ve been hurt by a lot of Sagittarii in particular but don’t think Ill of fire signs in general. 3. Past: 7 of wands I had what would have been a strong relationship with a high school crush but was emotionally killed when we separated due to college decisions. I don’t have any idea where she is now and it took about 6-7 years to get over her. 4. Present: 10 of cups Shows a small family looking into the distance. I’m terrified of creating something (a child, a relationship) only to watch it fall apart. Contrarily I cleaned up a toilet today so I’m not all negative? 5. Future: 4 of swords A casket. Kinda makes me think I’m pushing my premonitions onto other people. 6. Outcome: 8 of cups I’ve turned away and been turned away from. My family situation is tricky. I am the eldest of five and want the others to know I care but the next in line (my sister ) is refusing to hear it. I’ve decided to walk my own path, but my mother is still with me after my father took his life in 2011. 7. Desire: Strength She can lead me to victory, I just have to be more trusting, which is really hard for me. 8. Responsibility: 8 of coins I have a lot of talents which can manifest but I’m also stuck with disability payments. I’ve worked two official jobs but need something under the counter so I don’t break the bank. I love tarot obviously so that’s something. 9. Hope: Lovers Straightforward? 10. Fears: Judgement Like I said, impermanence can be scary, especially when I withdraw into my “alter-self”. I don’t drive and absolutely refuse to for safety. But I’m DDF and do a lot of walking. 11. Advice: 7 of cups I have a lot and am eternally grateful. But is it too much to ask for more? Or is that avaricious?

Thank you for listening to me vent. Happy 2024