I would never call myself a "Taoist" or claim anything. This would go against that.

My entire life I have felt lost. Whether it be religion, school, or career. I never felt like I fit. Like I said, lost. People would ask "what is your passion?". I had no response. A hobby I love? Definitely not work. My kids? These all felt hollow.

Then came divorce after a 17 year relationship. Further buried into being lost. I started to look inward. It was a slow process. A toxic, post marriage, relationship led me to this slow realization. Always look for the lessons. I started reading. Someone suggested I read "the wisdom of insecurity" by Alan Watts. This book changed my life and opened a new world.

Through reading. Listening. More reading. I discovered that this has been the missing piece to the way my mind has worked my entire life. I'm simple. I'm quiet. I'm thoughtful. I'm weird. I never liked keeping up with the Joneses. It is refreshing to not feel guilty anymore for not doing "what I'm supposed to do".

I cannot imagine living in another way.