I'm 35, 5'10", 135, 6.5c, and I'm looking to do something I haven't done before: Have some good, long fun with a woman.

I'm nervous as hell about it. For context, my last relationship ended in 2013. Some months into that relationship (mid-2012), I started having trouble getting it up for my male partner. We tried more verbal work, but the only thing that got me off -- and it got me off quick -- was my ex moaning about me giving him my baby. I came, but I felt depressed that it was just 'pretend'.

Fast forward almost 9 years, I've tried everything imaginable to get it up for a guy. I came out as bi in 2019 because, if/when I watch porn, I only get truly hard for MF, MMF, FF, or other scenes where a woman is receiving. Specifically, I will cum handsfree as soon as I see a creampie.

That brings me to now: I've tried meeting with other guys again recently, but I can't sustain a hard-on. My last attempt was a few days ago, and despite the guy giving me oral, I couldn't get it up at all.

I still scope out guys and enjoy bottoming; however, I need to make sure that it's not my sexual orientation before I conclude it's an erectile issue. That brings me back to the nervousness part: - I need a woman who's comfortable with any risks (if you get pregnant, I'll support whatever decision you make, but I also really want to be a dad at some point), - A woman who feels comfortable giving a gay dude time to explore and learn the ins-and-outs of being a good sexual partner/boyfriend (esp. because I want to do oral), and - Someone who's willing to try out new experiences.

Most important, I still like guys. I still have a soft spot in my heart for attractive guys. But whether that sticks around or not, IDK? What matters is that I find someone comfortable enough to laugh at stupid mistakes, to encourage me at the right time so I build confidence, and overall just help me figure out how to navigate sex/dating/relationships with women.

Some of my interests include: - Programming, specifically around data management. - PC Gaming (I'm a huge Ubisoft fan and own nearly 40 of their games) - TV like Downton Abbey, Home Fires, and AHS - Anime like GITS (my favorites are thrillers like Resonance and Ergo Proxy) - Books like Solzhenitsyn, Orwell, and guilty pleasures like Nora Roberts, Mary Higgins Clark, etc. - I am politically neutral and would prefer to avoid activism.