Hello. ive been struggling with sex for a while, namely with my past partners i havent been able to put myself past my anxiety and nerves. Ive been getting more and more comfortable over time but im out of a partner and i dont want to start dating again until i get over this. ive decided to address the issue and get my first time over and done with, in the right conditions for me to hopefully get through it

about me: young m, probably average looking face, 5'10, slim. i love just about anything done with the right person, but my favourite things to do are long walks, both hiking and just roaming sydney till i get tired, finding new places to eat or hang out, and watching movies/shows with others. My end goal is hopefully to open my brain up to sex without the added stress of a relationship. My past experiences are limited to giving oral and making out, and ive had two partners before.

ideal type: I have a type, but I care more about who you are than what you look like. Id prefer an experienced woman between 19-49, willing to lead me and be a bit more firm because i cant control my anxiousness very well and dont want to bail myself out of it. ideally someone gentle. obviously fine with trans women too

I know this isnt kinky at all, but i dont really know any other way i can explain my situation and find someone willing to help me so ill gladly take advice and other places to go too.

repost because no luck