My wife (32f) of about 4 years began drinking while home alone with our joint kids (2yo and an infant at the time) about 3 years ago. When I (43m) tried to help her by removing alcohol from the home she posted on Facebook that I was emotionally abusive... Fast forward a year, she again was drunk with the children this time screaming at my son, her step son (11 yo at the time) to "get the f*** out of her house". When I got home that day she packed her things and took our joint children to her mother's.... A month later I found out she was sleeping with some guy and she filed for divorce. She denies to this day that she has a drinking problem and the court has even awarded me 80% of the parenting time as a result. She is still fighting me with attorneys (she's on her second now) and refusing to pay any of her bills, which is beginning to cripple me financially. I'm doing everything I can to care for my kids the best that I can but I'm still so sad about what has happened almost two years ago. I feel so upset with her for what she has done to our kids, but I'm also so sad about what our lives could have been. I just don't know what to do anymore.