I know it shouldn’t affect me but I’m currently feeling really down about this.

I was very happy with my improvements in surfing, while being a beginner, but now that feeling is so gone.

I went to a surf camp and I had to overexplain myself a lot to not to be put with first timers, before they even saw me.

I also wanted to use my board (I’m only 165cm and I’ve been using my own 7” 55L soft for a couple months now) as I’m now gotten used to it and it took me some time to do so. It was important to me to be able to fit it in my car too.

Is that crazy to use this kind of board?

I’ve been surfing quite consistently for 1,5years now and I feel very light with this board and have a lot of fun with it. Still have a lot to learn of course but I also feel this one is not as forgiving as the 8’ school ones I used where I wasn’t improving my balance, timing etc as much.

Sorry for the ramble I guess I’m mainly looking for some encouragement or reassurance 😞

This also finds me questioning my body as I feel I’m judged by it. I’m perfectly healthy and totally inside the normal weight bracket but don’t look fit also as I’m a bit more curvy, even thought lately I’ve been complimented a few times about looking strong in my upper body. But I’ve never been good at sports or practiced very very regularly so don’t look strong or fit.