Hello. I have been playing LoL since season 7, and it is my end goal to stream LoL full time. I do love the game, and being someone like Tyler1 has always been something I would like doing.

The biggest thing holding me back is my rank. I’m Diamond 3 currently, but obviously that is nowhere near good enough to start streaming. I have been grinding to try and improve for most of this season. Guides, Vods, Vod reviews of my own games.

The thing that holds me back is my mental. I honestly believe I could be Diamond 1, or MAYBE Masters depending on some luck factors. It’s just that my mental holds me back.

I thought back on all of the over 1000 games I’ve played this season, and I realized I tried to FF at least 3 times in every single game I’ve played, win or lose. I instinctively do /ff at 15 minutes no matter what. No matter what I vote yes on an FF. I actually remember I have lost 2 games this season to the ironic FF where 3 people voted yes and I voted yes anyway in a guaranteed win. If I make a bad play, even if it’s not game losing, I type “gg go next” and mute all, and straight into the T1 slouch for the rest of the game. Toxicity and blaming teammates really isn’t an issue for me, I know some games are auto losses I don’t care that much, but if I make the mistake I just give up and soft int for the rest of the game. Not only this, but after these games I don’t even want to keep playing, and I am just stuck in impostor syndrome that I don’t deserve to be in my rank, and I try and switch roles all the time to see if maybe I’m better on a different role. It’s just getting me nowhere. Just wondering if anyone had similar experiences, and if anyone had advice to overcome this.