Recently lost my cat, on the day I also lost my mom. She was my rock, my eldest. I felt so lonely and scared but she was there, then came my other cats.

She was such a sweet and loving cat. And it was hard not being there for her in person because I am at university. They're the top reason why I wanna keep pushing despite how hard it has been for me emotionally and mentally. I wanted to give them a really great life. I tried but I am still far from being able to really give them that kind of life. I did not think she would be gone too soon.

I know she's out there, probably hugging her other sibling whom we lost 3 years ago, around the same month.

I don't know what's with my birthmonth. I know I should not be blaming myself but I feel so sad. I miss them so much and I am hoping to get some hope from books.

Thank you and I wish you get to spend a lot of seasons with your loved ones.