I had only one SR till date. It started a year ago. I felt rinsed every now and then but I kept putting up with it. After about 4-5 months, it ended. It was ugly. Very ugly. We came back together after a month and it lasted only for a month and ended again in ugly manner. She was a narcissist and I couldn’t realize it until after I got completely into it. I had to visit therapist and I still do. I am also on to anti-depressants as I have been unable to get out of the emotional abuse (I am also responsible equally as I let her do that to me). There is a deep loneliness in my life. I’m an immigrant from an Asian country. I don’t have family or friends here and married life wasn’t worst you can imagine. To fill the void, I thought of getting into sugar dating and it just did the exact opposite of what I was looking for. I’m now worse than I was before getting into it. I am still feeling no way out of this as it’s been months seeing therapist and anti-depressants. I tried sugar dating again but couldn’t even get past texts and didn’t have the courage to go for M&G. I see life and sex very differently now. It’s scary. And I’m still lonely and there is now a bigger void. Sorry for the rant. I just don’t know how to get out of this vicious circle.