Hey guys, it’s your girl back at it. I like making these posts because no one in my personal life knows I’m in the bowl and I need to get the info out somehow. Anyways grateful for you guys x

Ok so I’m a big gcal girl and I like planning ahead. My calendar for this week had three blue sections, which meant three POT dates. I was super excited lol but now my calendar has no blue :/

        1. Anyways the first date was supposed to be a m/g with someone who seemed super nice and I was excited to meet him…I had the cutest outfit picked out. Anyways that was supposed to be early evening today and we did the whole confirmation in the morning and everything. Well of course as I’m sitting my last class of the day he texts me saying he had a great m/g with someone else and our date is cancelled. Firstly, thanks to him for communicating that and not just ghosting me (lol) I’m happy for him and hope it works out. But it just sucks because I was looking forward to it. Oh well I guess

        2. The second date was supposed to be late evening tonight with someone I had a m/g with last week. I got suspicious when he didn’t send a confirmation in the morning so I went ahead and texted him. Well of course he still hasn’t responded and it’s been five hours so that date is cancelled I guess. Like I totally get it if you’re just not interested anymore but learn something from guy #1 

        3. The third date was supposed to be at the end of the week with someone I also had a m/g with last week and we were supposed to start the arrangement or whatever LOL. I’m sensing a rescheduling pattern with him so I wasn’t surprised when I got the text this morning but I had already planned my outfit for that one too and was excited. Hopefully he doesn’t reschedule again but I’m not even gonna put that shit in my calendar lol.

        Bonus: This one guy who I had a m/g with about a month ago and acted like he wanted arrangment but never made plans texting me today asking about my sex life. He is neither mindful nor demure and needs to take a class on decorum. What type of BS is that.
        Bonus 2: Another guy who I was supposed to have a date with last week (who I agreed to a lower ppm than usual and he knew this) texted me this weekend saying he doesn’t want to meet anymore because his ppm is lower than I wanted. I mean sure? But I said it was fine and never mentioned it again so what? Anyways I just left that alone…hope he finds the one lol

While this is all unfortunate news I appreciate it because the more it happens the more numb I get. Not even in a pessimistic way but just in a “getting used to the bowl culture” type of way. My first SD never did any of this BS and introduced me to the whole sugaring lifestyle so I didn’t realize it was like this before. On the bright side, at least I have more time to study now. Anyways I do get down sometimes when this happens — for SD’s and SB’s, how do you find encouragement/brighten your mood to continue your search when shit lowkey sucks? Any and all recommendations welcome

TLDR: I had three dates now they are all canceled and I want tips on how to encourage myself