Been making some big changes lately and staying consistent the whole way. Gotten myself down to 2mg/d from 12mg/d a few months ago. I've been going to the gym 4-6 times a week and doing a little cardio but mostly weightlifting. Been counting calories and macros and staying consistent with that as well. It's a holiday weekend and my mom is flying in from Portland Oregon to spend the holiday and my birthday with me. But I just feel off... Idk... Had really bad heartburn last night and slept even worst than usual and I'm sure that's got a bit to do with it. Even though I'm feeling this way I still got up and paid rent and went to the gym for an hour this morning hoping that'd pep me up as it usually does but honestly I think I feel worse. Some days are just like that right? Like before I found drugs some days were just this way and I never thought twice about it. So why the big hang up on it now? Today I choose to step forward not backwards (even if it feels like only a small step- I'm not giving up)

Just hanging in for today knowing this too shall pass- tomorrow should be better!