I'll tell ya... I remember feeling so trapped this time last year! I was taking 12 to 14 mg of sub daily and hated my life. I hated that I quit taking kratom only to get on subs and after being on it for just a bit of time I noticed I couldn't feel my emotions anymore... Which honestly doesn't seem that bad at least initially but when you realize you don't get happy or excited or look forward to anything anymore it becomes a burden. I have been tapering from the 12 mg a day down to 10mg/d, then 10 to 8 to 6 and now I've successfully been at 4mg/d for the last 3 days. I feel good y'all... I noticed every time I step down my dose a little bit of me comes back. I can feel things again (although honestly my emotions still feel very blunted), I don't feel crushing depression mid-afternoon as my medicine wears off, I'm starting to look forward to the future again. More than anything as I wean myself off the stuff I realize how strong I am... I thank God for making a way when there wasn't one. Here's to fighting the good fight 🥂