So I take 12mg (4mg 3 times a day) my dr doesn't know it seems the best way to use this med. I am content on 12mg but I can only but think of the future how hard is it going to be going from 12mg back down to 8mg (which I did 3mg 2x and one 2mg in the evening) will it be harder cause I take it 3times a day? And am I double fucking myself trying to go from 12mg to 8mg and only take it twice a day? One thing at a time I know.

Should I adjust from 3 to 2 doses while on a higher dose? And then taper down to 8mg? Does that make sense? I also need to muster up the guts to make a plan and then follow through, like I'll probably stay on 12mg for at least a month but realistically probably until January phew I need support lol my craving were through the roof that's why I'm on 12 and Nov and Dec are bad months for me and I desperately want to stay sober so thoughts? I know life will never align for me to comfortably do anything but I want to make a plan and want to be off such a high dose. And then look at going to like 4mg but again worried of relaspe.