I’ve been on suboxone long term taper since 9/2021. Started at 8mg x 2/ daily. Down to 1/16th strip in AM and 1/8th strip in PM 1.5mg per day. It’s been a struggle but I’m making my way. Went through some scary moments on this where I thought I was dying for a time. Looking down the abyss of perma-suboxone use is frightening and I intend on continuing the taper as quickly as possible without getting sick(est).

I’ve been going to NA since 4/2022 when I stopped smoking week and only was taking the suboxone. Picked up chips and met some people. Now I’m about to pick up my 1 year chip and my sponsor picked NOW to challenge my understanding of the word clean and ask me if I should really pick up the chip if I’m on suboxone.

I’m not saying he’s entirely wrong. But if he’s entirely right, then all the smokers, coffee drinkers, Benadryl takers in allergy season…etc etc—-Zoloft patients—I feel like they aren’t clean either.

I don’t want to make this about the spitefulness I’m feeling toward him rn, but I do think that he was careless with what he said. My MAT is being administered by a caring doctor and is in place because I am a habitual relapser with opiate abuse disorder… I guess I just wish people understood that suboxone is about mental health and calming the midbrain—not about getting high… even the first time I dosed after my DOC I did not feel high. I was miserable for eight months until my body leveled out. Now I feel amazing and healthy and I look forward to continuing my commitment to taper off.

Just looking for some feedback and encouragement. Should I pick up my chip? Is this guy an ass hole, although well intentioned?