I have been Sir's sub for a while now. He is my first Dom. When we first started, I was so new to the whole experience and very uncertain about myself. He was patient and taught me, guided me into this new self I was discovering. Being a good sub and taking care of my Dom was in the very front of my thoughts. I can be a tad too strong headed and smart mouthed sometimes though and that has lead to me to today's lesson learned.

My Dom and I do not share the same opinion on what football team to cheer for. I don't miss a chance to let him know when I'm supporting my team, which lead me to send him a picture of me wearing a team shirt and asking him if he was as excited as I was that my team was finally playing again. His response...I am to wear my butt plug every time I'm wearing my team's shirts. Fast forward to a week ago....I was supporting my team and did not put my plug in as I was very clearly told. I had what I thought were reasons but really, I was just doing things my way. He was not pleased with my disrespect. I spent three days having to endure ruined orgasms. One every hour, or every even hour or 4 (which ended up being 7 because again I have a smart mouth) in a day.

My first reaction was to be upset with him. I felt like he went from 0 to 100 in 3 seconds. He was telling me I had become very disrespectful lately. I thought he was overreacting. I didn't want to believe it, so I started rereading some of our messages over the last few months. Boy was I shocked when I began to realize just how badly behaved I had become! He had very gently and patiently been warning me for a while to watch my behavior but I had been blind to it.

He's been stern with me this week but also given me praise for being good. I haven't been allowed to cum yet. He wants to make sure that my level of respect remains before he allows me to have an orgasm.
I know what my rules and expectations are. He has always been very clear about them. What I didn't slow down and think about was this dynamic over time. I wasn't mindful enough to remain vigilant in keeping my mouth in check or my focus on my Dom's enjoyment. I let it get away and I've been treating Sir with a good deal of disrespect.

My punishment is still going on but I feel a level of gratitude towards Sir. He has taken the time to again teach me and guide me back to where I belong. I feel calmer and in a better mind set. This reset has been a wake up call. Don't allow bad habits to take over or take for granted the person you are serving.

He deserves so much more from me than what I've been giving him. I'm looking forward to proving to him how important it is to me to make sure he is happy.