I’ve been with my D for years and our sex life is amazing. We have a 24/7 dynamic. At the risk of bragging, I’m very, very obedient and hardly ever get in trouble, so our relationship mostly looks like a trad wife situation (unless I do fuck up, which is mostly never). He’s loving and adores me and I have no complaints about him.

The problem is me. I’m technically available 24/7 for free use, which turns me on immensely, but I haven’t experienced that part of the dynamic for years because I want him all the time and am constantly begging him for sex. Every day I resolve that this will be the day I won’t throw myself at him but once he’s awake and we’re cuddling in bed all my resolve has floated away and my hand is down his pants 😭 he says he loves it and not to stop initiating but I feel so desperate and disappointed in myself that I can’t be more patient, or even play a little hard to get. I’m happy to be his slut 99% of the time but it would also be so amazing to be wanted and taken every once in a while too. He’s usually cum before we even get out of bed in the morning so he’s drifting through his day completely content and not in the mood to hold me down and take me again, meanwhile I’m dying from wanting him so much.

I love servicing him and bringing him pleasure but it would be nice if I had the self control to at least wait half a day so I could have something to look forward to 😅 the other day we had to be somewhere early and didn’t have sex first thing, and he had his hands all over me and couldn’t wait to get at me by lunchtime. I want that more often!

I want him literally 24 hours a day and am not allowed to make myself cum so this is a problem.

Does anyone have any advice for how to develop more self control? Or am I just stuck with being a slut and need to work on surrendering to this dynamic? Literally any advice at all is welcome. Thank you!

Just to add, he absolutely would not like it if I stopped touching him or pressing my body against him when we see each other throughout the day. Which makes it so much harder. (I can almost control myself when he’s not close to me.)

Also I don’t know if Doms are allowed to post here but just in case they are, I’d love to hear from them too!