I was not looking for Sir. I had been posting in a local group and one of my posts prompted him to message me. His message stood out from dozens of others. He was intriguing and well spoken, intelligent. I looked at his profile to get a better idea of him and it told me he was a Dom. That idea excited me. I had played around a little bit with the ideas of BDSM before. I knew that I liked certain elements, but I had never considered exploring it. We spent a couple of months talking and feeling each other out. He didn't hesitate to answer my questions about him and about being a Dom. He was patient as I worked through what I was just starting to realize about myself, that I was a submissive. He had lots of questions for me. What was I interested in, what have I done in the past, what my limits were. He tested me, gave me tasks, rewarded me with praise and told me when I needed to do better. He opened the door for me, offered me a chance to learn and play. I am a strong-willed and independent person and I'm not used to being told what to do. I am also accustomed to being free with my words and opinions. Like most dynamics, I have rules to follow. I refer to him as Sir when speaking to him, I'm not supposed to argue or question. I'm not allowed to use the word 'no'. (Which leads to many an entertaining moment as I must come up with other ways of saying no.) Following these rules has led me to realize that I don't want to always be in control. Being Sir's sub has allowed me to find relief from all of that. He has allowed me to discover the pleasure of obedience and respect. I get to experience the freedom that submitting to his desires gives me. When Sir tells me I have made him smile or I have done a good job it gives me the greatest high and I crave hearing it over and over again. I'm not always a good and obedient sub. I sometimes smart off to him or forget the respect due and he will justly correct me. Recently, I had an opportunity to post pictures for 14 days straight, progress pictures of marks left behind after a rather intense impact play. I enjoy seeing marks. They are reminders of Sir that always make me smile and I enjoy remembering how they get there. The pictures are great but it was the experience of sharing them that really made a difference to me. A few days into the 14 days I was feeling uncomfortable and wanted to stop. After discussing it with Sir I continued. By the end I felt different about it. I started feeling a certain amount of pride and thankfulness that wasn't present in my thoughts before. He is teaching me so much more about being a better version of myself than I could have ever realized, and I am grateful. He deserves my respect, my obedience and I very willingly submit to him. It is my purpose to put a smile on his face and when I do I will have my greatest reward.