Context: 19, male, bi, extremely submissive and subservient. Long time lurker here. Honestly too embarrassed to make any posts, but now it's time I did, because I'm tired of having nowhere to talk about this.

In recent months, I've been finding myself feeling more and more lonely. I've been craving the attention and love of someone dominant, so I can give the same in return, in mass quantities, larger than they could imagine.

I want to have a collar lovingly locked around my neck, with a little tag that tells who I belong to, and some of the things I like most.

I want to be treated roughly, yet with love all at the same time.

I want to serve them, cooking breakfast for them in a cute apron, and bringing it to them, to receive a headpat and a smooch in return, with a gentle, yet firm tug on my collar to bring me close enough for it.

I want to be dressed up in all different cute, feminine, kinky, (or all of the above) outfits. Everything from skirts and thigh highs to full latex suits, corsets, and gas masks. I even have one that I'm saving for an occasion like that.

I want them to know just how much being able to serve them in whatever way I can means to me.

I want to just do things for them, serving however I can.

But the problem is, I feel like I'll never have that, and I'll be stuck, alone and cold every single night. I'm sick of it. I fall into this weird niche of submissive guys.

The guys who have said they're attracted to me are always the "daddy" type who make it weird, and good fucking luck finding a woman who's into a guy that's submissive and fem.

I don't know if I'm cursed or something, but it feels like I'm never going to find a dom to serve.